Viv 48- Guilt and goals

I try to think of the right thing to say to fix this. Should I just tell him that I love him? Would that even fix anything or just make it worse. I don’t think loving someone is a magical band aid that will make up for treating them poorly. I have seriously screwed this up. Mal is just so easy to get along with and so accepting, it’s hard to see sometimes that there are actually things that hurt h